Tuesday, October 6, 2009


I feel RAW!! I'm wondering how many more bombs life can throw at me. I wonder how many more I can take before I truly fall apart. Latest : * My car - mechanic is unable to source an engine currently + there is the estimated cost being somewhere between R15 000 & R20 000 (I'm shell shocked) * Stupid Landlord phones/emails yesterday stating he wants to sell his house. We still have 4 months on our lease. One of the conditions we had was that he NOT sell during our lease period, he assured us that he was not wanting to sell (Yeah Right!! - fell for that one didn't I) - I am not here to babysit his house while some Estate or him is constantly in and out with buyers. Tell him straight out that if he wants to sell then he must let us out of our lease - NOPE - he doesn't want to do that because we're tenants who actually PAY rent, not like his previous tenants who did not pay him for 6 months. Let's add to that that, everything he promised to FIX - he hasn't. The scale is on the Up and Up!! I'm in a food coma and my body hates me!! I feel bleghhhhhh.... I'm at the mercy of certain people and I'd rather not be. I have a School Leaving Certificate - that's it. Going back to work won't fix the car nor will it pay for the childrens aftercare, nevermind schooling. I'm stuck between a ROCK and a HARD PLACE. Going back to work creates more problems than it fixes. **sigh** I hate myself because I feel like I've failed!! Just when I thought life was on the mend, that we would recover from the past 2 years KAK (crap) - life continues to throw curve balls and I've honestly had enough. **sigh** and **sob** over & out Puncture Girl


Hanlie said...

I can really relate regarding the job situation... I know that it's not the right thing for me right now and it will only cause more headaches. It's weighing very heavily on me and my self-esteem is rather low at the moment.

I know what you mean about the landlord!

Hope it all sorts itself out!


Capt Elaine Magliacane said...

Oh Mich... I wish there was something I could do to help you...
Hope your landlord has no luck at all and you get to stay as long as you want to. Bummer on the car too... I hate car problems because I haven't got a clue if they are lying to me or not... I tend to think they are lying about 80percent of the time... so unless you really, really trust this person... get a second opinion if you can.
Hang in there girl friend... you are doing great on the weight loss don't let this (or the scale) put you off track... you've worked too hard for too long.

MB said...

I'm so sorry so many things are piling up on you. At times like these I like to think there is nowhere to go but up (except the scale - that has to go the other way). Hang in there, take care of yourself and keep the faith that things will get better.