See, touch and feel - real goals

March did not exactly go according to plan.  It was so off-plan that I don't think a plan even existed, as it turns out, there was a plan and that plan involved 'self-destruction'. 

When you're the person losing the weight it is sometimes hard to see how far you have come. 

Yesterday I looked at a photo of myself and OMG - I'm still fat.  But hang-on how bad did I look 16 kg's ago, when I wasn't gyming, when I wasn't cycling...when I wasn't working at it.  There is the 'OMG' factor and there is the 'putting everything in perspective' factor

Over the last weekend I tried on a pair of 'skinny' jeans and a size 18 fitted beautifully - WOW - cannot remember when I last fitted into a size 18.  Wake-up Call!!  Woohoooo!!  BUT - I did not buy the pair of jeans that made me feel like I was on top of the world that day.  Today that changed and I walked into the store and bought a size smaller - I bought the size 16.  This is a 'do or die' moment - those jeans will fit and soon.  All of a sudden I have a goal I can see, touch and feel.  It's real!!

How to keep that goal always in sight.  Well - it's my wallpaper/theme for my Blackberry.  Yep, the new addition in my life.  Love my Blackberry.

Reaching the finish line - then what?

Towards the end of last year my focus became about a certain race I had entered and my life revolved around planning for this race - the 94.7 (no finish line for me) but the BIG race was over and I was left wondering 'now what?'  All direction, all focus disappeared - a HUGE black hole appeared before me and I sank into it.  Not a good place to be.  I think my body was pushing for some time-out and that is what it got. 

With the New Year came a fresh burst of ENERGY, a renewal of sorts - a need to continue with my journey.  I entered a few more races and completed my first Century race - 103 km's. 

BUT

I got to thinking this week - I feel like I'm setting a trap for myself.  What will happen when I reach goal weight?  Am I setting myself up for a 'now what' moment? 

I don't want it to define my life - this 'goal weight' achievement, if anything it should be a step/path on a journey to life of healthy living - not the be all and end all.  I don't want to find myself at goal weight and falling back into old habits.  Hopefully all my new healthy habits will stick cause let me tell you old habits have a sneaky way of creeping up on you and taking hold. 

With each 'finish line' comes a sense of achievement and I cannot wait for my next one.  With every kilo lost the cycling gets easier and one day soon I'll be flying up those hills instead of struggling up them.  I even manage to make 'granny' gear look hard.

Today my focus is seeing beyond that 'finish line' - keeping the passion and continuing the journey because the journey should not have an end but always a beginning......