Towards the end of last year my focus became about a certain race I had entered and my life revolved around planning for this race - the 94.7 (no finish line for me) but the BIG race was over and I was left wondering 'now what?' All direction, all focus disappeared - a HUGE black hole appeared before me and I sank into it. Not a good place to be. I think my body was pushing for some time-out and that is what it got.
With the New Year came a fresh burst of ENERGY, a renewal of sorts - a need to continue with my journey. I entered a few more races and completed my first Century race - 103 km's.
BUT
I got to thinking this week - I feel like I'm setting a trap for myself. What will happen when I reach goal weight? Am I setting myself up for a 'now what' moment?
I don't want it to define my life - this 'goal weight' achievement, if anything it should be a step/path on a journey to life of healthy living - not the be all and end all. I don't want to find myself at goal weight and falling back into old habits. Hopefully all my new healthy habits will stick cause let me tell you old habits have a sneaky way of creeping up on you and taking hold.
With each 'finish line' comes a sense of achievement and I cannot wait for my next one. With every kilo lost the cycling gets easier and one day soon I'll be flying up those hills instead of struggling up them. I even manage to make 'granny' gear look hard.
Today my focus is seeing beyond that 'finish line' - keeping the passion and continuing the journey because the journey should not have an end but always a beginning......
